Kuanshu (re)Application

[Kuanshu]

Hi guys. To the point, it's me, Elias, Darius, Demiphius, Chase, however you may know me. To those who do not know me, you may consider me as Kuanshu. I am here to reapply for candarion in hopes of pursuing a more pleasant experience this time around. And by that, of course, I mean more pleasant for the whole community as I was not living up to those minimal standards half a year ago and throughout the majority of my two-ish years with the community.

I want to start by apologizing. I am genuinely sorry for being the jerk I was. I am sorry for making longtime members, newer members.... many members, those who are meant to be my peers and friends, uncomfortable, unhappy, unsafe, and unwelcome in their own community. My ego and narcissism were certainly overwhelming and unfair, obviously got the best of me and caused me to treat others poorly. I have no excuse for the crappy, rude, often mean behavior. I pushed away many who I considered friends, and at this point, I don't understand why I did it and I just hold regrets because I know with many, that damage is irreparable, if even forgivable.

I would like to make it known that I want to start over. Entirely. I am applying to start from scratch, begging for a second chance to show that I am sorry, and I am willing to move forward as a more kind, positive figure who will keep things more on topic and to the point without being problematic. Scratch that, I am not willing. I simply will because that is the person I want to be. I want to be more constructive with you guys . I want to be a supportive figure, and help others realize their dreams in their worldbuilding. I want to be a friend. And while that may be hard for many of you to let me do these days, understandably, I would ask for the chance.

For those who don't know who I am-- I am the founder of the Dwytir. You may find my old works in map and on the forums/ wiki. I worked alongside Alric in Ornthas as a vassal. I originally joined may 2019, and was removed from the community December 2021 for many problematic reasons that I will not make excuses for. During my time on Candarion, I raised to viscount rank, held a few vassals, was deputy of applications and deputy of infrastructure for few terms, and minister of applications for a term. I was not super productive in these roles. If my return were accepted, I will likely not pursue these roles again, and instead insist on either returning to my old work, or starting fresh with a new liege.

There are many people deserving of personal apologies, though here is my all encompassing apology to everyone: I am so sorry for being a jerk. A prick. A whatever word suits it. Please, allow me to do better.

My application is as follows.

My name is Chase. I am 21, a prior member of candarion, I live in Iowa. I work in restaurant management. I am in love with worldbuilding and minecraft alike. Candarion is the perfect home to combine the two. I hope to (re)join candarion to express my worldbuilding fondness with a likeminded community, and contribute myself to a greater cause. I am more open than I once was to a diverse candarion world filled with unique intricacies and diverse storytelling set in the canon timeline of events and given restrictions. I would like to settle down with a calmer narrative void of grandiose limit pushing stories, and collaborate more with others for the sake of fun and friendship.

Most here are familiar with my build abilities, though for sake of application requirements and for those who are not familiar, here is are a few imgur links:
https://imgur.com/gallery/qDGxvVr
https://imgur.com/gallery/rQxkFHc
https://imgur.com/gallery/zs99fAf
https://imgur.com/gallery/2uCzEmd
https://imgur.com/gallery/62VekF7

Lore is as follows:
(much more lore of mine regarding ornthas and the dwytir may be found on the forums and on the wiki, though I wrote something fresh here)

Atop the mountain village of Shangao, the peak of the land graced by the golden light, his empire stretched further than the horizon allowed. A millenia spent, following the creation of man by the Great Mother, Chusheng, he pushed back the darkness that encroached upon the land. As his might grew with the expansion of his race of man, he vanquished all evil and Shangao became the epicenter of divinity. A savior of man, the divine Zhengfu reigned over his people, assisting and driving their development. For this, he was loved by man.

Though, contrary to his belief, evil had not been eradicated. Deep within Zhengfu, darkness grew.

Zhengfu grew weary of those around him, influencers, mortals of power, strong warriors. Once benevolent and collaborative, he descended and became threatened. He silenced those who contradicted his word. He made a public example of those who opposed hi, He murdered the innocent. Among his own arrogance and ego, the people of Shangao suffered, and little by little, darkness returned to the lands of the Great Mother.

As his race of man was slowly slaughtered, Shangao’s own power declined. His word held no value, his physical strength reduced. In a disaster of his own creation, Zhengfu withered away, rejected by his people.

Suddenly, it was over. The darkness dispelled, and Shanghao met peace once again. By the hands of the Golden Light casted by the Great Mother, evil was destroyed, including Zhengfu, who had been exiled from the land.

Over the coming millenia, Shanghao had grown into a greatly prosperous land, governed by the later children of the Great Mother. Divinity of compassion and creation kept Shanghao safe under the Golden Light.

Perhaps it was at this time that the Great Mother felt generous. A baby’s cry could be heard from the heart of the city.

Kuanshu was reborn, with a great journey ahead of him.

[Sebastian]

I think this is a really great app and I appreciate how you seem to have grown over the time you've been away. I think from an in-game perspective, you have an amazing talent and your contributions to the server in that form were really great and still visible to this day.

Great build and the lore excerpt you posted is nice. I like how you introduced a new village and can see that fitting into our world.

With my personal belief that there is room for growth in everyone, I extend the first vote for having you accepted as a new member of Candarion. This is under the assumption that banned members who lost their member status have the right to apply to regain it. If admins decide against that, consider this vote mute.

Tentative 1/5

[Kuanshu]

@sebastian Thank you for your flattering response and your vote. You are much appreciated.

[bryson3842]

At this time, I will be voting no. I do not think that this will change, ever.

[Mimo]

I will be voting no.

[BoiteMan]

I will be voting no.

[Iokastos]

I will be voting no.